Stories on a Bad Weather

When I was younger, I had a crush on my childhood friend named Tristan (not his real name). He's not very cute, but he's a nice guy and I loved his sense of humor. I've always known he liked someone else, so time came when I gave up hoping for us to have a chance.

One day, he started texting me. Hellos then turned to intimate messages, which later on turned to calls. Daily conversations happened for about several months. He even admitted that he liked me, and wanted me and him to be a couple. Things were going pretty well between us, and I thought we would be together. But for some unexplainable reason, we didn't.

Years passed, and I've moved on from what happened between me and Tristan. I had a relationship, but that didn't worked out as well, so we broke up. A month later, Tristan started talking to me again. We're back to our daily exchanges, but I learned he had girlfriend. I knew right then and there that things weren't meant for us, and I realized that we will never be together.

Tristan and I are on speaking terms again. But this time, we're both on a relationship, so I guess it's the friendship and the special connection that we had that always brings us back.

I don't feel awkward talking to him about our pasts now. I know we're both mature enough to understand things like that. On one of our conversations, he said 'Malay mo diba? Di natin masasabi kung anong mangyayare sa hinaharap. Sana bigyan pa tayo ng chance.'

I didn't argue with him. I should not close my doors. He was my first love anyway.

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I bought a copy of The Light Between Oceans at a book sale two weeks ago. It's a really good book and I hate that I haven't been reading it. I'm stuck on page 100-something. I don't know why my reading self has been on a low these days. Maybe because I'm always tired from work. But I promise that I would finish it this week. I need to catch up with my readings now. I'm two books behind schedule of my goal of 30 books this year. Speaking of books and novels, I've been thinking of taking a Creative Writing course for my Masters. I love to write, but I suppose writing doesn't not love me back. But I've been trying, and right now I'm writing a short story. It's still under construction, but I'm hoping to finish it at the end of the year. It's hard to write when every day you come up with new ideas. So what I do is write everything that pops into my head then organize it later on. I want to do so many things and I don't even know when and what to start with. I hope things turn out well.

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I've been sitting in front of the computer for more than eleven hours now. I'm feeling tired and my back's aching real bad which is a sign of stress. Typhoon Maring and the monsoon winds brought heavy rains causing floods and landslides, deaths and other casualties. Classes and work from both private and public companies were suspended. But here we are (the whole GMA News and Public Affairs team) working on our asses to inform the people of the current situation of the country even if the outside world's becoming a vast ocean. I just want to go home and end the day with a good night sleep.

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